Goodbye Rochester

I sat through Part A of commencement ceremony today. It was definitely interesting. Granted; it was crowded and a little overwhelming to see so many students next to me but it was also pretty empowering to sit and listen to the speeches that my president and our speaker (the newly appointed CEO of Xerox) had to say. It was also really sad.

Yesterday, I had my final crit, then I met with my parents for dinner- they had just gotten in from NYC, and then afterwards I went over to Dan's place for a final "hoo-rah". As we were there, the old group, Dan, Brian, Oronde, Jocelyn, Eric, Min, Petros and even Josh were all there. It was really weird. We haven't really met up this entire term, but I remember last year, we used to hang out all the time. I mean, that apartment was my second HOME. I used to be over at Dan's place almost everyday... I was even designated my own living space. So much has changed since then, and I remembered all the crazy, stupid stuff we did, and all the fun times we went through.

I was sitting at home, packing up all my things and it hit me so hard. I am never going to have that kind of lifestyle again. My easy, care-free, day to day thoughts about projects that mean nothing are over. I am probably wrong, in every sense, because I'm sure as time continues, there will be even great experiences and even better memories to be made.. but it just seems like I'm too impatient right now to really see it anytime soon.

In two words, I'm scared.

Tomorrow night is my major commencement ceremony. I'm really excited for it and pretty nervous about it too. It will be the actual end, but at least I will get to be with some of the people that I loved for 3 years before we part ways and never really have this RIT bubble again.

It's hard to explain what excitement and fear mixed together is really called. They should invent a word for it. Well, okay, I WILL. Let's call it "excitlefear". All right everyone, please begin using my word "excitlefear".