Photography

I've come to a lot of decisions lately.
It's about 6 more weeks til graduation. My future is laying there right in front of me. All this time that I've been at RIT, there was one set goal in my mind- to become a successful photographer.

I believe I work hard. I want so badly to succeed. My dad said something very interesting to me the other night, I was tired, I was stressed out- so of course on my gtalk msg, I was like, "I'm becoming a workaholic". So then my dad msgs and says, "Please don't become like that. I hope you become average like your dad." That hit a huge nerve on me. I don't want to be average- I want to be a success. I WANT success. I don't want to be working so hard only to fail miserably. I realize that this path I chose for my future will leave me with millions of little failures- I am okay with that, but the end goal is that I want to succeed.. and have my work seen by people. I love my dad, I think he is the purest example of a man who worked so hard, and was so successful, he had 3 great children, 2 of which are successful .. and one more that's still in the works (that's me), an amazing grandson, and two wonderful children-in-laws and a wife that will never stop loving him. But I feel like right now I am in this stage where I want my career to be a high priority.

I was sitting in critique today with 20 of my other fellow seniors in my major. A lot of them had complete garbage on the wall. Some girl even had the nerve to say, "I just took this picture while I was procrastinating". I was appalled- and I wasn't the ONLY one who was annoyed that someone would say something like that. Why would you waste your classmates time in this time where it was meant to have other photographers look at your work and give your constructive criticism so you could improve? You are wasting our time by putting up garbage. Another girl in my class blurted out, "You're a senior now, and this is how much work you put in?!". Honestly, it's crunch time, if you want to be a photographer- you need to work HARD, harder than ANYONE. There is SO much competition out there, and if you dont put your soul and heart into your work- then you will get no where. Your portfolio should be top notch, you need to eat, sleep and breath photography- there is no other way.

Doesn't my life sound somewhat fun?
I know what lays ahead of me, and I get burnt out once in awhile, but I know what I love, and to make amazing images is something I love. I've worked so hard already and I'm not about to give up either. Every shoot that I've had these past 2 weeks have taken so much energy out of me, but I also love the feeling I get when I look at my contact sheets and I say to myself, "I can't believe I shot that!". I LOVE that feeling and I never want to lose it. I also want to share with the world!!

and that is why I do what I do.

10 Hours in the lab?

Last night, Kellie slept over and we watched Japanese dramas until 3:30 AM. We were watching "Hanakimi..."

Hahah. Anyway, woke up this morning at around 10:30 and trudged over to the lab to start doing work. I hated my currently website layout, so I finally decided to re-model it myself completely. Worked since 12 noon, and just currently wrapped up. It's almost 10:00PM. A bagel and 2 cups of french vanilla later, my website is now complete!!!

But I am really happy with my hard work and I am so glad that I did this!! I'm pretty proud of it!

I present to you: http://www.cynthiachung.com

Go!! :)

French Vanilla

I seriously love waking up to the sweet aroma for french vanilla coffee in the morning. It just makes me feel so warm and cozy. Love it.

I had plans to go to the mall and take the bus there.. but it was raining pretty hard so I then decided to spend the morning at home, (drinking my amazing coffee that my housemate made for me), and do some work in my living room. I realized that I like my apartment a heck of a lot. When its the morning and it's quiet, it's a really great place to relax. The windows are wide open, allowing daylight to flow into my living room- and I just love the open wide space. I got a lot of work done this morning- very inspiring.

I was suffering from major artists block this past few weeks, but I think it's finally subsiding. I am gaining the trust in myself to produce some amazing work again, and I'm already scheduled for 3 shoots this weekend. It's going to be crazy - but I'm ready, armed and excited for it.

It's almost time for work. Blah, I really don't want to go. 6-11pm. Sigh

Tired of those emails that go to space.

All right.

I am so tired. Not only have I been searching around the internet for a job.. but I feel like I'm already a little disappointed. Maybe it's because I know that 1/1000 of my emails will actually be read,. so I think I need to send out about 4000 more emails this coming month. Haha Oh brother.

Anyway, stumbled upon a lovely site that I like to read to make myself feel better.
http://www.fmylife.com/

Yes.

I think I'm getting old though. My friends had to explain to me what it meant the other day. I felt like such a noob- am I really that detached from the world lately? I'm too involved in my work, it sucks. I can't imagine what I'm going to be like when I have a full time job.

Oh, fml.

The Beginning.

So here I am, opening up a new blog. I remember back in the day where I used to have a xanga. Everyday of my high school career I would write about the happenings of the day. It was a great way to log my memories, relase a lot of the emotional tension and just give "someone" a piece of my mind. I quote, "someone" because personally, I have no idea who will actually read this blog or who would comment on it.

I have a work-blog. One in which I show images of my photographic work, and talk about my projects.. however I keep that strictly work related. I want to have a place where I can speak freely about my opinions and also.. my bad habits. :)

So, here I am, 8:28AM on a Thursday morning, sitting in the ESP lab working. Yes, I am getting paid, but I'm also working on a few projects that I have to put together. So, I've started a new budget plan for myself. Since I'll be graduating in... less than 2 months, I decided that I should really re-evaluate how much money I am spending and where my money is going. I've been jotting down the amount of money I spend, I've been working on cooking lunch/dinner and taking it with me to campus to conserve, and also spending less when I go out. I hope this will be a consistent plan.. haha

On another note, coffee has once again made it's way back into my heart. I woke up to the wonderfully harmonious smell of Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla coffee yesterday morning and made myself a cup..since then.. Sorry tea, we're on a break.

I also re-opened up my facebook. On the account that- I NEED IT. I was trying to see how long I could go without it, but apparently 1 week is all I can really do. I realized that facebook is so useful, in terms of finding classmates, partners and people in school. I especially use it for contacts and pictures (of my cute nephew).. but I do intend to spend a lot less time using it and probably staying away from it. I also need to figure out how to really work this whole privacy system, since I've been applying for some internships lately. Well, we'll see how this goes.